Some mornings, despite my best effort, I just cannot drag myself out of bed (maybe getting up with an infant has something to do with it???) So when the time to get up arrives, I decide to take a few extra minutes of rest. Well of course those few minutes turn into an hour and I am jumping out the bed with the intention of doing my quiet time with the Lord after I get breakfast on the table. Well with five kids situations where I need to practice what I read in quiet time pop up faster than toast! It is at this point that i resort to blaming everyone but myself because they’re the ones who aren’t listening or doing what they are supposed to. Mommy can only keep her cool for so long so even if I had bothered to read it, Proverbs 31:26 “When she speaks she has something worthwhile to say, and she always says it kindly.” surely wouldn’t be talking to me anyway because these kids asked for it!
Funny thing about God, He doesn’t hold us accountable for what others do, only how we respond. So in that moment where I am making sure my kids know EXACTLY how upset they MADE me I am reminded “Love is patient; love is kind. Love is not jealous; is not proud; is not conceited; does not act foolishly; is not selfish; is not easily provoked to anger; keeps no record of wrongs; takes no pleasure in unrighteousness, but rejoices in the truth; love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, and endures all things.” (I Corinthians 13:4-7)
I do love my children but I am not acting like it according to that verse! My quiet time with the God would have prepared me for my day because it fills me with His love and gives me the strength to do all things (including listen to each child with compassion and respond with the same grace He gives me.) Motherhood is hands down the hardest job on the planet! The hours are long, the duties are endless, and my emotions are unpredictable! All the more reason why I must seek direction and wisdom from God, which means lots of time in His Word seeking to understand my position in Christ and as a mom. I asked the Lord to help me be more consistent and the Holy Spirit kindly pointed out that since I am getting up at 4 am to feed the baby that is a perfect time to feed my soul as well 🙂